Today 1/22/08, I don't have a dollar to my name. My bank account has been overdrawn thanks to the college of my choice even though I withdrew from classes last week. Calling the school and the bank was useless. The school informed me that I will not get a refund until the 1st week of March and the bank was no help because they said I authorized the school to take the money.
I've already cried to the point that my eyes are sore. If I knew all this would happen Lord knows I would've filled my gas tank up this morning :). Cause I don't have gas/money to get gas to drop the kids off or make it to work in the morning. I don't get paid again until next week and the little bit of nothing I call a paycheck is going towards my rent.
See in my life, I live check to check. Am I embarrassed by it? HELL YES! I struggle to make all ends meet. I long to be the type of mom that has an Executive level job and money is not an issue. I long to do things for my children without worrying about which bill I'll have to skip to do it. I long to have MY OWN HOME and not have to see that yellow slip on my door from late rental payments...every month.
As I lay here thinking of a master plan. I am drawing nothing but blanks. I don't know what I'm going to do. I haven't lost my faith cause I know things are going to get better, in the mean time...I'm asking for nothing but prayers.
Random Thought/Question: Albert Einstein, said "the definition of insanity is repeating the same action over and over and expecting different results." So if I keep applying to the same company/station for the same position over and over, expecting a different result...does that make me insane?
Trying to understand how my struggle will work out for my good,
Truth
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2 comments:
Gurl that single moma lifestyle is no joke! It is not easy at all. I have a 4 yr old and truly its by the grace of God that I have gotten through the trials and tribulations that I have gone through.
Keep your head up!
I read somewhere that when we are trying to get through doors that are consistently closed to us, it's probably a clue to change direction.
Look at it like a mouse in a maze. They can smell the cheese at the end of the maze, maybe it seems so close because it's on the other side of the wall that they are trying to go through. Nothing can penetrate that wall though, no matter how many times it tries. It eventually redirects itself and finds the real direction that will lead to claiming its prize.
Maybe it's time to explore other opportunities. What are some of your other passions? Explore those.
Ms. Tee
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